A letter from the mother
"i am not here to conquer you. i am here to merge with you." i whisper to the grand mountain i stand on in Sedona, looking towards the magnificent peak . she whispers back to me with vibrations that run through my feet to my heart, opening it up. "i am your servant great mother. do me as you wish." i say as i say many times a day for the past few years. "guide me. live through me", is my pray to her since the day i consciously decided to dedicate my life to her, to be of service to her in any way she needs me. our great mother.
just like me, she is now defrosting from a long, harsh winter. patches of snow are scattered everywhere on the mountain like scars from war. she is healing, yet there is still a long way to go. even after the summer sun will melt all the ice away. but today, the warmth gives us both new hope.
it is a heavy, confusing time for the mother and all those few who, like me, are her servants. true servants who make every decision of our lives according to her needs. my body, and mind and heart is at her disposal and that relationship is something i cannot share even with the closest to me. so it is very lonely as well, but the honor of helping the mother is all i need. her love and guidance and the hope she will be free one day, together with all her children is what keeps me going.
she shows me the future, the present and past and takes me to the deepest truths of this realm and others, though i am not allowed to share most of it with humanity just yet. i have tried a few times , despite her warnings, but only got attacked by even loved ones who were not ready to receive this information. so for now i do the work for her behind closed doors, deep inside of me, until the time comes to do it differently.
to feel what she is feeling now, is very difficult. its heavy, its painful, its dark. the mother is in a dark time now and even many wonderful, 'spiritual' people around me cant understand the darkness she is facing now. "its all light, its all love, we are all one..." i hear the same mantras from them, and these words are true. yet they are not the only level of existence.
the mother is loving. she is patient, open. but now she is also very mad. she has lost her patience for many of her children and is in so much pain for them as well. as her servant i have been hearing the cries of her children all my life, the physical pain of all my sisters all over, the helplessness of animals, and the fear of boys and girls who crave for protection but get only horror. like her, i am no longer patient. nice words mean nothing at this time, if we don't take action as well. and the first step to that is Awareness.
i keep hiking up the trail and see some women pass me by on the way to the top and i notice my mind immediately judges how beautiful or not so beautiful they are. and she reminds me, it is the beauty and ugliness in me i am judging. it is the darkness and the light that she is struggling with , the same light and darkness i struggle with now as well. it is her love and her rage, her beauty and her pain.
there is so much beauty and ugliness in the outer world now that i am seeing. so much awakening and so many who still choose the nightmare. the ugliness thats trying to take its last breaths before the mother is rising for good. but we still have a long way to get there. it is the darkest hour for man kind- before the brightest dawn.
you see it in your family and friends, you might have had to let many people close to you go. you see it in government, in cultures, food, art...every aspect of this world- if you know how to look.
it is the balancing that is happening in each of us - the balancing of the divine mother and father, masculine and feminine. but as we take our baby steps figuring this all out , theres chaos, since its a new path we are co- creating. some choose to shut their eyes to the darkness , and some cant seem to see nothing but it.
it is crucial to be aware of all levels of reality. not just the highest one (and im talking to you spiritual peeps) where there is only love and unicorns and rainbows, but also this physical realm of pain, fear and hate. and it is just as important as all other levels in between. i am not asking for you to live in fear, but in conscious awareness. to know the game on all levels. to know how to work and even play with the energy in each of them- so that you have the power to win the game.
awareness is our tool to navigate in all realms, to know this physical world (which , BTW, is the one we chose to be in, and the most important one, since we are still here in our physical bodies), all that is happening at any moment, and yes- also the plans that are made for us humans - because at a certain level, whether you like it or not, you are being controlled- and your only way out - is AWARENESS.
awareness of your own inner world, your demons, weaknesses, and desires. your past , present and future. get to know your ego. do not fear it. feed self love every moment .
awareness of the food you are putting in your body, of the agenda that is played out here, the poisoned water, the tortured animals, the poisoning of food, the corruption and secrets of the people who are manipulating this world, etc,.,,,
whatever you do- do it with love. even if you get mad, do it with love. many intense changes are happening now to the mother and to us- her children.
some of us are here to sit in meditation and focus on happy thoughts. some are here to spread the truth and shine light on the agenda, the reality of this world and yes- even shake some of us with a bit of fear (because whats happening is scary!) and some of us are here to fight. with actions. with energy. but we must do it all with love. for her. our mother.
we all have an important role now and must be honest with ourselves to find it. to work together, be open and listen to each other. you know when an information is brought with truth and love. learn how to discern and trust yourself. you are more powerful than you think.
the world is changing in a rapid pace each day, in the physical and spiritual realm. you might have even noticed how you yourself are changing so fast. keep changing, keep moving, learning, growing, asking questions and follow your own guidance.
the impossible is possible now and that goes for good or bad. our biggest dreams and worst nightmares can come true now. there is true evil in the world, just as there is evil in each of us. its just that most of those who are reading this probably choose the light in them to be more active. open your eyes , brothers and sisters. there is so much happening now.
there is a mutual, collective path we are heading for and unfortunately , at this point it is too late to stop it, but we might have a chance. as i said i cannot share the grim future i have seen yet, but know you have power. you can still create the world where the mother can be free. and she will be eventually , i just hoe it will be sooner then later.
if you wish to serve her in this crucial time- be AWARE. ask questions. work on all levels of reality, not just tose that are confortable for you to see now. do it all with love and truth and honesty. and do not be afraid to go deep within yourself. there is light after all the darkness.
connect with the mother and ask her what she needs of you, let all ego and mind go when reaching out to her for she is source, she is your life force, your true self.
the reason we are all here now is vital, and we all play a part in this game. and after all, on one level- IT IS a game, so don't forget to take your inner child and play as well. to hug that child just as the mother wishes to hug him/her .
unite with your child power and set out on an adventure.
its nice to sit in meditation, say nice words of love and unity , be comfortable in your small communities and inner familiar, circle , but where is the action? there is no time for this bulshit anymore.
something big is happening now to your family all over the world and if you say "we are all one" than you better show it. and it starts with really knowing whats going on. not what the main stream media wants to brain wash you with again, but really go deep in the rabbit hole and get the truth. its scary, its dark and its not easy to hear now, i know. but it is the only way to heal it. with love and courage. being angry at whats going on doesnt make you less loving or spiritual. in fact it can help you now. the mother is angry too. be a tool. anger is fire and it can ignite your actions. and your heart. actions that have seeds of love will change everything.
even if it didnt hit your home yet, its happening on earth- which is your home. no time for silence anymore. be prepared for the storm. she needs worriors now. she needs her children to unite and work together. she needs her sons to support her daughters cause they are doing most of the work now. women are a vessel of greater power, but we are even more powerful with the support of a divine masculine that protects and creates a safe space for us to do the work.
where are you not being homest?
where does the darkness you see outside, exists in you?
dig deep to find yourself.
this is not the time to get admirers . its time to get the truth. you are not here to be liked, but to be in service. to love.
i need you my children.
i love you.
from your mother and her servant.